I haven't added a word to my current work-in-progress in almost a month. Like a napping dog, I'm giving my keyboard a wide berth, allowing it a proper rest.

I'm hoping my manuscript will benefit from the hands-off approach and grow into something larger ... something worth chasing ... like a ball or stick or mail truck.

To recap, I participated in November's National Novel Writing Month. Upon meeting my goal of 50,000 words and getting the roughest of drafts down, I stopped writing "cold turkey" the day before Thanksgiving. Unlike many of my #NaNoWriMo peers, I chose not to push my word count higher, even though my women's fiction project will probably need at least another 20-30K words.

"Sutton's Second Chance" includes an addict's story. At the start, I didn't realize how emotionally draining this plot line would prove, and, though proud of my month-long accomplishment, I found myself glad to step away from the manuscript once I met my November goal. It's not that I didn't want to touch it again. Quite the opposite. At its bones, it's a story which must be told and heard. Exhausted, I simply wanted a chance to recover and enjoy the holidays with family. I intended to continue that writing break through until the end of the year and start again in January.

The joke was on me. The brain apparently didn't get the memo. It hasn't rested since Turkey Day. 

Though my keyboard hasn't produced any fiction in almost a month, I haven't stopped writing in my head. I haven't stopped thinking about my story. I've been working quite hard, actually, straightening out the kinks, firming up the plot, getting to know my characters, identifying missing chapters, and tossing half-formed ideas at my husband like hot potatoes from the oven — often randomly in the middle of the football game or an hour after turning off our bedside light. 

I'm a planner. When I start a project, I like to research and outline the basics, before I begin. That planning is a great start, but every project evolves once I'm in it. So much of my best "writing" is done away from my computer, after the bones of the story are down. I'm taking the time to let my brain catch up to what my heart poured out on the page. 

Each writer approaches a project in a different way, but every writer can benefit from a break from the keyboard. Every writer can benefit from time to think.

To be clear, I've been taking notes as my ideas surface. It's a terrifying, incredibly long, hand-written list of what I need to further research, change, eliminate, or add, when I finally decide to go back to the keyboard and begin again. It will take me months just to finish that first draft and likely a year to produce a draft worthy of a beta reader.

But I'm okay with that. My writing will be stronger for it and far more ready for an agent's eyes, someday, because I let my fledgling manuscript get a good rest like the napping dog. 

I am not a #NaNoWriMo writer who pushes to publish before the dust settles. I have no gripe with those writers, and many produce beautifully crafted first drafts. That's not me. My work needs time to mature—grow—while I'm away from the keyboard.

And thinking about EVERYTHING.

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Why should you finish what you start?

I'll be perfectly frank. I have skated along, just doing what I needed to do to stay just above the daily goal line for #NaNoWriMo2019. Still, with the exception of Day #2, a planned non-writing day because of a classmate reunion, I have not missed a single day during this entire month. There were days I wrote 4,000 words. There were days I only wrote 400 words. The take away? Even though I haven't yet hit that magical 50K to "win" NaNoWriMo for the second year in a row, I will, MOST DEFINITELY, finish what I started.

I am currently sitting at about 45,000 words. 50K is doable, obviously. Not that far away, but it hasn't been easy. The process is exhausting, both mentally and physically.

If it's hard to find time in your day or you don't feel well or your car broke down or you're in the middle of a writer's block OR you're only a fraction done, it's still worth following through with #NaNoWriMo2019.

Here's why:
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1. "Almost" is nice, too. I worked really hard to prep for this, and I've written consistently the entire month. To give up would feel like wimping out. It's worth trying, even if I don't make it. I have written more in three weeks than I usually write in three months. No matter the final word count, it's more than I had when I started. It's writing progress. That's a win, in my book.

2. Finishing feels like a serious victory. Last year, I actually burst into tears of joy when I glanced down at my word count and realized I had jumped right over that 50K mark without even noticing. Goals aren't always easy to meet, but getting there tastes so sweet. So, so, so sweet.

2. The story is worth the time. When I jumped right over 50K (without noticing), I was in the middle of a really tense ending scene. I was in the zone, baby. It was good stuff. It was a story that needed to be told, not just because I wanted to get to a certain word count, but because the story was solid and worth spending a month to tell. I went on to spend many, many more months editing and lengthening that story. It WAS worth the telling and is now in the final draft stage. My 2019 project, the sequel, is equally important to me. It's a story that needs told.

3. I said I would. Any goal, once it's out there, is a goal to be achieved or tossed away, like so many promises in the wind. I said I would finish. It took a lot of effort to get even close, so not seeing it through—not trying my best every single day left in the month—would feel like a goal lost for the wrong reasons.

4. I'm on a roll. I finished last year for the first time. I'll finish this year, because I want to prove 2018 wasn't a fluke. It wasn't. Trust me ... there's no going back now:)

Don't give up. Keep trying. Finish what you start. I'm rooting for you. You've got this. 

Write on, my #NaNoWriMo friends. I'll meet you at the finish line!

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You can do it.

It's NaNoWriMo time. As we close in on Friday, Nov. 1, and the start of National Novel Writing Month (with the goal of writing 50,000 words in 30 days), here are some thoughts on my process and what you can do in less than a week to prepare to write that story keeping you up at night.

Don't think you have it in you to write a first draft in a month? Haven't done anything to prep? These shortcuts can make starting that writing project on Nov. 1 less overwhelming. It's not too late to take the chance! 

LAST MINUTE tricks to prepare for NaNoWriMo:

1. Create an account. Without a NaNoWriMo account, you won't really feel bound to pursue your goal. It takes only a few minutes to sign up, and it's free. Having a live account will give you a nudge to commit. Even if you choose not to follow through, the website is brimming with writing tips. 

2. Brainstorm plots/settings centered around something/somewhere already familiar to you. You don't HAVE to write what you know, but, in the case of NaNoWriMo, writing within your knowledge base and/or in a setting you've been to will reduce research and help you get off to a quick start. 

3. Get to know your characters. Listen to the voices in your head. Take just a couple hours to create mini character profiles of those you'd like to include in your story. Give each character his or her own page in your notebook and jot down potential names, what they look like, age, occupation, any connection you'd like them to have to other characters, interesting mannerisms, speech patterns, how they dress, etc. This is tons of fun. Through character profiles you can actually get ideas for conflict and plotting (and sub-plotting) for your story. 

4. Set it up. Where do you want this to take place? What time of year? Whether it is a place you've been to many times before or someplace completely fictional, write down the basics of your setting. Town? Region? State? Planet? If it helps, sketch a map of the surroundings. If the setting is real, create a folder on your laptop to stash various links that will help you pull facts in later, as you need them, to make your representation of the setting more realistic. An easy option is to go to the area's Visitors Bureau website, which may provide historical information and photos.

5. Create a SHORT plot synopsis. Once you've got some interesting characters to play with and a place to let them play, jot down potential "What if..." scenarios that allow your characters to interact. Which scenario interests you most? Which would be easiest to write without a lot of research? Which creates the most conflict? Once you hone in on the plot you want to pursue, attempt to write a short 1-2 paragraph synopsis. Like the back cover of your favorite book, this synopsis should not be too long but with enough details to draw a reader in. 

6. Glimpse the beginning, middle, and end. Just because many planner-type NaNoWriMo participants have taken all of October to fully prep for the big event—spread sheets, blocked off calendar, play list, 30 page synopsis, and a brand new coffee mug—doesn't mean you, a "pantser"-type, can't be successful flying by the seat of your drawers. Just try to have some general idea of how you want your story to start, what specific actions/plot points might happen midway through the story, and some sense of what happens to end the story. In other words, what is your point A and point B and what possible pitfalls will your characters see/experience when traveling down their path from one point to the other? 

That's it, really. With the above steps, you've got a base. I can guarantee, those characters are likely to take a few wild turns off the path, and they might even send you down a completely unexpected rabbit hole, but at least you'll have some sense of where you'd like to go. That's all you need to participate in NaNoWriMo. It's all I had last year, and my 2018 project not only made it to 50K words but is now fully fleshed out, edited, and in the hands of beta readers. 

Just do it. It's not too late to take the chance.

For more tips, check out my Oct. 3, 2018 blog post on prepping for NaNoWriMo.

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Yep, I'm doing it again. I'm taking the challenge.

National Novel Writing Month, NaNoWriMo, is November, and I'm prepping for my next novel, "Sutton's Second Chance," what I hope will be the sequel to my 2018 effort, "Charlotte's Choice" (now called "Sutton's Choice").

The goal of NaNoWriMo is to write 50,000 words, or essentially a short novel, in one month. I did that last year by the skin of my teeth with 50,497 words and a day to spare. I was so into writing the final chapter of my rough, rough, rough, rough draft, I didn't notice jumping over the 50k mark (and my "win") until several hundred words beyond my goal. I literally burst into tears when I realized I'd crossed that line. 

That is a feeling well worth recreating. I broke down a fiction writing barrier with NaNoWriMo 2018. Not only did I meet my goal, I spent 11 months cleaning up the mess that was my first draft. Four drafts later, "Sutton's Choice" is complete at about 70,000 words and now in the hands of beta readers. Once their comments come in, I'll be diving back in and hope to have a viable final draft ready by next spring, so I can start sending to lit agents. 

NaNoWriMo was such a game-changer for me, I hope to keep the momentum going in 2019. Here are 6 reasons why NaNoWriMo is worth the time, even if the result is a messy,  ugly first draft.

1. I wrote to get the story down. I did not have time to second guess every word and tweak my writing as I went. I had to GET IT DOWN, and worry about the nuances of it later. This allowed me to try new things and stop analyzing my every thought. Overall, I believe this process was more organic, and the writing felt more natural.

2. It gave me a goal with very concrete deadlines. I love a challenge, and NaNoWriMo is definitely that. For anyone with a full or part-time job, it becomes even more so. I decided to do NaNoWriMo because I work best when I have a deadline. I take due dates seriously, so not following through with this would have been a fail for me.

3. It made my writing public. "Announcing" I was doing NaNoWriMo nudged me to follow through. By going public with my short synopsis and keeping my readers apprised of my word count progress, I knew I had to prove (to myself and everyone else) that I could finish. Obviously, I'm following that same principle in 2019.:)

4. I felt a part of something. Writing can be a lonely sport. Writing during NaNoWriMo is like going to a month-long writing workshop at which you can ask anyone anything at anytime, via the Internet and Facebook NaNoWriMo groups, and probably get multiple answers to your question ... plus tons of encouragement that you are doing great. NaNoWriMo is a wonderful support system.

5. It provided a rhythm to my writing. In the past, I'd sit down to a chapter written the day before and feel the need to back up and edit ... sometimes entire chapters at a time. Because of the time crunch of NaNoWriMo, I only allowed myself to back up and edit 1-2 pages each day. That way I'd get my editing fix in without taking hours out of my writing time. This also allowed me to get back into the rhythm of the story, so I could go full steam ahead with something new each day. Essentially, NaNoWriMo made me a more efficient writer.

6. I finished. Messy or not, I completed a first draft of a novel, something many writers say they'd like to do, think they can do, should find the time to do, but never do. I DID do it. Though it was rough, rough, rough, the first draft of Sutton's Choice was something to be proud of, and the final draft is just around the corner. I have NaNoWriMo to thank.

NaNoWriMo is not for everyone, but for those of us that can look past the mess that is that first draft, and see the nugget of gold beneath the ugly, the process is totally worth the time and effort.

Good luck and happy writing!

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The good news? I've been busy editing the 4th draft of the women's fiction I started last November during NaNoWriMo.

The borderline scary news? This week, it's leaving its safe haven on my computer and falling into the hands of my beta readers.

Yikes.

Pretty sure I'm going to hear some things I don't want to hear about my work-in-progress, but using beta readers at this stage, though scary, will likely make the difference between a completed manuscript that does justice to its characters/plot and an unpublishable story that just barely scratches the surface.

I'd prefer to take the extra time to get input from beta readers, rather than rush to submit to agents without proper feedback. Although I am a member of two writing critique groups and have had many sets of eyes on my writing for months now, beta readers, of all kinds, are what I need to keep me honest and true to my story.

For me, a beta reader is all about the big picture.

My writing critique partners look at my work 1-2 chapters at a time, but with a monthly gap and always with a writer's eye. Beta readers fill a different need. I treat them as exactly what they are ... READERS. I ask my beta readers to pretend they've pulled my book from a library or bookstore shelf. I encourage them to read my work as seamlessly as possible, only jotting down general notes, as needed, while they absorb the story as a whole.

Big picture. 

​Ultimately, it is a beta reader who will be able to give me feedback on story cohesion, character depth, pacing, content accuracy, etc., because my beta readers won't be focusing on the sentence structure and grammar, but looking at the story with a wider lens.

Choosing beta readers, however, can be a tricky thing.

"Charlotte's Choice," now dubbed "Sutton's Choice," is about a 28-year-old writer, Charlotte Sutton, who learns her estranged father Chuck, a famous sports writer and community news publisher, likely has early-onset Alzheimer's disease. Charlotte must return to Lakeside, Ohio, her small Lake Erie hometown, to take on responsibilities she never expected, never wanted, and never asked for. In addition to facing her father, and all the emotional baggage that comes with their rocky relationship, she must also face the locals she avoided all through her growing up years. Add in a failing community newspaper, an almost defunct marina, and a teenage sibling Charlotte didn't know existed, and "Sutton's Choice" becomes a minefield of medical, legal, and emotional content.

There's the rub. I'm no doctor, no lawyer, no counselor.

Did I do my research well enough when setting up all these plot points? That's something my beta readers may be able to help me with, if I've chosen them wisely. 

To put a face on my ultimate beta reader for "Sutton's Choice," I need:

• a reader who is a doctor/caregiver of Alzheimer's patients
• a reader who has personal knowledge of Alzheimer's as a family member, spouse, or friend of a patient
• a reader with general dementia knowledge
• a reader with professional grief counseling knowledge or professional experience with teen depression/bullying (such as a school counselor)
• a reader the same age as my main character—about mid to late twenties
• a reader with intimate knowledge of Lakeside, Ohio and its surrounding areas
• a reader who grew up in the Lakeside, Ohio area and went through its school system, just like Charlotte
• a reader who was an only child all through the growing up years, just like Charlotte
• a reader who is from a split family, just like Charlotte
• a reader who is a parent with teenagers in the house
• a reader who is knowledgeable about sports, in all forms
• a reader who is a writer
• a reader who has working knowledge of a small, family newspaper
• a reader who has legal/personal knowledge of Ohio family law & estate planning
• a reader who has guardianship of a younger sibling
• a reader who loves women's fiction
• a reader who has a literature or English background
• a reader who is my #1 fan (my spouse) and/or a "Brenda Supporter," because every writer should have at least one of those
• MOST IMPORTANT, a reader who will be brutally honest if my manuscript sucks in certain places, but not as a whole, because a true Negative Nelly beta reader should be avoided, if at all possible

And the list could go on and on.

I was selective about who I asked to be my beta readers, but I didn't scrimp. Total, I asked 26 people, for very specific reasons, to help me with this project. Because being a beta reader is a time suck on other people's lives, I expected only about half to respond with a "yes," and I was spot on. Of the baker's dozen of confirmed beta readers, about half came from those with personal Alzheimer experience. My writing friends have a lot going on with their own work, so I was pleasantly surprised by the couple with interest. Some of my readers definitely fall under the "Brenda Supporter" category, and that's okay, because a pat on the back is always welcome. A couple lawyer friends and two educators are joining the fray. Many of the readers fill more than one bullet on my list, and most are intimately familiar with Lakeside.

All in all, I'm thrilled with the diversity of my beta readers.

Tips for working with beta readers:

• When initially asking for beta readers, send a "query-like" request giving a short synopsis of the story, what is expected of your beta readers (notes on each chapter, weekly updates on progress, or whatever you set as a goal), and why that person is qualified to help. To give them a glimpse of what they will be reading, include a PDF of the first chapter.
• Give very specific guidelines regarding the timeline of when readers can expect to receive the full manuscript and what deadline you have set for a return of materials and/or feedback. Give your readers at least a month to complete the reading. I usually allow 6-8 weeks.
• ​Ask all confirmed beta readers for an email address, so you can easily communicate with the group as a whole during the process. 
• If possible, give your readers various format options. Some readers prefer a hardcopy they can hold in their hands and make notes in. This may be an added expense, but worth every penny in copy costs and postage, if it means you get concrete feedback. Some readers want a digital format for their computer (Give as a PDF, instead of Word doc, so changes cannot be easily made). Some readers want a download for their Kindle reader. Depending on how you've set up the initial format, you may have to experiment with PDF and Word files, to find the option that reads best on Kindle. I usually download the manuscript to my own Kindle first, so I can see what the doc download will look like. Check your Amazon Prime directions for personal doc downloads, but I've usually had the most success with a Word file.
• On both hardcopy and digital formats, include a date and your contact info. Also note in the cover sheet and/or on each page footer that all versions of the document are your property and may not be distributed elsewhere in any format without consent.
• Provide each beta reader with a general guideline sheet (no more than one page, so so as not to overwhelm them) of what you want them providing feedback about during the reading. In my case, I'm looking for fairly general input about plot viability, but beta readers can be used to watch for very specific things, depending on their background. Some beta readers can be broken into specific groups such as Grammar Police, Legal Eagles, Character/Setting Developers, etc. JUST BE VERY CLEAR ABOUT YOUR EXPECTATIONS for each, individual beta reader.
• Don't be a hound, but DO follow up about two weeks after providing readers with the manuscript, just to touch base. It can be as simple as a group email asking if anyone has any mid-read concerns or questions. This way, any reader who hasn't started will get a polite nudge to do so, and anyone who is deep into the manuscript will know you haven't forgotten them.
• Don't be a hound, but DO contact all readers about one week before the deadline you've set for return of materials/feedback, so your readers know their time with your manuscript is nearing an end. 
• Determine how you wish to receive feedback and be clear to your readers about this process. Will you require all hardcopies returned to you (at your own postage expense, of course) or may they keep them and submit comments via email? 
• Don't be surprised if not everyone finishes your manuscript or even responds with comments at the end of the process. Life gets in the way, and even the beta readers with the best intentions can have something interrupt their participation. Sometimes your manuscript is also just not their "cup of tea." And that's okay. That is why sending to a large number of readers is necessary. Of my baker's dozen of confirmed readers, I'll be happy if I receive constructive comments from half. 

And, now I wait. Will my beta readers like it? Will they hate it? Whatever the answer, at least I know I have done everything I can to further my manuscript.

Thanks to my beta readers, I am looking at the big picture and taking "Sutton's Choice" one step closer to submission and—hopefully—publication.

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My women's fiction work-in-progress, "Charlotte's Choice," is nearing the final draft stage. I've been working on honing a short pitch, so I can start submitting to literary agents this winter. 

For those of you who just went "lights out" with that phrase, think back flap paragraph of a novel. In a nutshell, it is the most basic summarization of a story and typically a single sentence of about 25-35 words.

The short pitch is gold when it comes time to submit a query to an agent. It can be one's best friend or worst enemy, depending on how well it is written. 



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​A short pitch is also sometimes called the premise, or central idea, of a story.

Without a central idea, a story may become just a series of rambling scenes with no point. Identifying the premise BEFORE diving into a new story can help focus the project from day one and keep a writer on track with a concrete purpose. If, however, a writer chooses to formulate a premise after the first draft, the writer may discover the plot has more holes than Swiss cheese (This was the case with the very first novel I attempted to write. The first draft required major revisions to fix central idea problems. I wish I'd recognized the importance of a premise before beginning my novel). 

A premise should contain five elements: character, situation/setting, "oh, crap" moment, goal/objective, and an opponent. Basically, the premise explains who has a problem and what the main character must do to solve the problem before something seriously bad happens.

Sample Premise Formula: When (opening conflict/disaster) happens to (character or characters), he/she/they must (action to overcome conflict/defeat opponent) to (obtain objective/complete quest).

Example: When a tornado whisks Dorothy off to a magical land, she must enlist the help of new friends and a lovely pair of ruby slippers to defeat a wicked witch and find her way home to Kansas.

Have fun Googling premise formulas. There are a gazillion versions, and, depending on what you're writing, it may take some time to find the formula that best suits the project.

Below is the working short pitch/premise for the women's fiction novel I started last fall during National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo).

Charlotte's Choice
By Brenda Haas

When 28-year-old writer Charlotte Sutton's estranged father Chuck is diagnosed with Alzheimer's, the dutiful daughter must return to her small, Lake Erie hometown to face her father and the past she'd run from 10 years prior.

Still tweaking. Not 100% happy with the wording yet. It's not quite ready to put in an agent query letter, but I'm getting close. 

Charlotte's Choice Premise Analysis --

Character: Charlotte, a 28-year-old writer (strong)
Situation/Setting: small, Lake Erie hometown (strong)
Oh, Crap Moment: father Chuck is diagnosed with Alzheimer's (strong)
Goal/Objective: face father and past she'd run from 10 years prior (somewhat weak, too ambiguous)
Opponent: Chuck? Alzheimer's? Past? Charlotte herself? (somewhat weak. I think the primary opponent is Charlotte herself, because it's Charlotte's flashback memories of her past that create an internal conflict ... a personal, mental opponent).

I'll keep working on this until I'm comfortable reciting it in my sleep, or it sounds right the next time someone asks me what I'm working on:)

​For more info on premise, check out the Novel Factory for some great free handouts.

Good luck and pitch on, my writerly friends!

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artwork by Michelle Haas

This is not my usual writing blog. I'm not going to provide the top 10 best ways to bring realism into your writing. I'm not going to tell you how to write a query letter with step-by-step instructions, wax philosophic about overused tropes, or provide any other listy, writerly tips.

Today, I want to talk about fear and butterflies and taking chances.

Angelica, Conqueror of Fear
I am a member of a local Rotary club, made up of various business owners, school district administrators, government officials, and other past and present professionals who see the benefit in staying connected and helping the community. At a recent meeting, I sat next to Angelica, a woman who had been in Rotary for many years, had worn many hats, and had just agreed to take on a somewhat lofty regional position.

Angelica and I hit it off right away. I congratulated her on her new role and asked if she was nervous about her extended duties, which would require her to step beyond her local, friendly group of peers and reach out to and speak in front of other groups - strangers, really - from the outlying areas.

Angelica gave me a Mona Lisa smile and said, "Of course. That's why I did it."

Her comment surprised me a bit and struck a chord.

Angelica went on to explain.

When a person is asked to do something outside his or her comfort zone, fear may create an actual physical response or that well-known butterflies-in-your-stomach feeling. When presented with that feeling, Angelica says one is also presented with two very different choices.

"Yes."

OR

"No."

Fight or flight.

Often a fearful person will choose "no." Not Angelica. It is that butterflies-in-your-stomach feeling that makes her sit up and take notice. She seems to thrive with a few butterflies. They allow her to grow as a person. When she feels the fear, she usually chooses to say "yes," because she expects to become a better person for it. Her fears push her to stretch her own boundaries.

I love that.

I reeeeallllllly love that.

As a writer, I question myself ... a lot. Should my character have black hair or blue? Should I set my story in my real hometown or fictionalize it, so as not to offend one of my many home-grown characters? Should I have my protagonist go down this path or that?

Should I? Should I?

Should I take my beta reader's advice or stick to my guns? Should I proofread one more time? Should I nix an entire subplot? Should I send my query out yet? Is my manuscript ready? Should I re-write the whole darn thing from a completely different point of view?

I don't know. Maybe?

Maybe not.

There really aren't any right or wrong answers. These are my characters, my settings, my paths. I created them. This is MY choice. Still, taking the safe route — sans butterflies — will not likely stretch me to be a better writer. Or, as Angelica would say, a better person.

To sum this up, as writers and as individuals it is always a challenge to meet our fears, recognize them as such, decide if we can (or even SHOULD) overcome them, and choose.

Yes?

No?

The key is to remember it's our choice. And our choice may help us grow or stagnate. 

Fight or flight.

From now on, I intend to choose butterflies in my stomach as often as possible. No idea if this will truly help me grow as a writer (and person). It's possible those butterflies will give me a serious case of indigestion. I suspect, though, my writing will be infinitely more interesting with a few butterflies flitting about. Seriously.

Maybe?

Maybe not.

Yes or no, I'm willing to give fear (and butterflies) a chance.

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It started with a LinkedIn connection and questionable, late-night text.

I'll back up a bit.

I was a reporter for a suburban Pittsburgh community newspaper. The publisher/editor, a sweet but salty woman named Georgia, was the 70-something daughter of the original owner. Paid at a weekly rate, I was supposed to work about 15-20 hours covering three school districts, local government, arts/entertainment, etc.

I often worked a lot more, because Georgia was awesome. She was committed to the community and her father's legacy, Penn Franklin News Publishing Company. Often seen on the football sidelines with her camera, she put in crazy long hours getting her hands dirty, writing her own stories, editing mine, and generally being the paper's face. Georgia was professional, kind, and recognized my 100% effort to help her put out a quality paper. She never devalued my time or worth as a writer. I was part of her team. Although she couldn't pay as much as she probably wanted to, Georgia's paychecks were on time ... her praise always generous. I often wrote well over my allotted 20 hours a week, for no additional coin, because she made me care about her business, and community, as much as she did.

Flash forward.

Recently, I moved and gave up my job with Georgia. Finding another small town newspaper to call my professional home made sense, so I updated my LinkedIn profile and connected with "Richard," one of several local publishers in my new area.

Through the locals, I'd heard some flattering and not so flattering (red flag) things about Richard. Still, I figured I'd give him a chance. I was pleased when he almost immediately sought me out, via a LinkedIn message, asking to meet. We exchanged information. I gave him my email address and cell number.

Then things got weird.

He quickly requested to become my Facebook friend, sending me an instant message wave (red flag). That Saturday night, after 11:00 p.m., I was woken by a text message on my cell. "Hey," said my new friend Dick (blazing red flag).

I ignored the message, hoping he had pressed the wrong contact number. On Sunday, Richard messaged me, asking what I was doing (red flag). What does one say to that? I again ignored him and discussed this with my husband, wondering if I'd somehow sent the wrong vibe. Richard's communications were just odd/vague enough to make me question ... a lot.

On Monday morning, I sent him a LinkedIn message indicating I'd be happy to meet to discuss my writing between 9 am - 5 pm, Monday through Friday. I should have dropped Richard at this point. But I'm ever the optimist and perhaps a wee bit naive.

I emailed him some writing samples.

Not long after, Richard invited me in for a real meeting, in a real office at a real desk during real business hours. He presented me with a real business card. We discussed my real skills. It seemed I was a good fit for the real needs of his real company.

I was real(ly) relieved. The meeting righted the ship, putting this new LinkedIn connection back on a more professional footing.

Richard's editor, a grizzled reporter with tons of experience, contacted me about my first project ... two 500-word articles. Months before, Richard had asked what I'd charge for a 300-word article. When I emailed my invoice for the 500-word articles, the rate reflected the longer length. Being generous, I added only one extra hour to each project.

My invoice was due 30 days from receipt. 30 days came and went (red flag). I sent Richard a reminder. 60 days. No payment. No communication (red flag, red flag).

I was eventually told Richard wasn't thrilled with my rates (red flag), something he'd never bothered to discuss with me. Oddly, I was asked to meet about additional work. At the office, I made it clear I'd not discuss anything new until Richard dealt with the old. And I'd need something in writing for any future projects ... assurances, shall we say, that we were all on the same page about rates AND I'd get paid in a timely manner going forward.

There was much apologizing. Richard scurried off to get me a check.

I was to work just a few hours a week, Girl Friday to the grizzled reporter turned editor. A kind man. A professional. He reminded me of Georgia. From what I could tell, he worked harder than most anyone else in the room. He said he liked my writing, and I liked him.

Respected him.

I typically work for people I respect.

And for people who respect me.

But I'd need something in writing, I told Richard. I again gave him my rate sheet, and told him to come up with something he felt was fair. Richard sent me a boilerplate contract, with my lowest acceptable rate. My attorney husband took a look and made a few adjustments. I sent it back, approving the rate and asking Richard if he had any concerns. Richard said he'd print it, and we could sign when I started the next week.

Week one, no contract (red flag). Richard said he'd get on it. I was a ghost in the office, only really acknowledged by the editor sitting across from me (red flag). I did my work and tried to ignore the shouting coming from the adjoining office, as an employee yelled at a disgruntled subscriber who had repeatedly requested the paper stop delivery (red flag).

Week two, I brought in my own copy of the contract. I handed it to Richard, my signature already on it. He abruptly left the room and dumped it on the manager's desk, visible from my office. He chuckled, his laughter ricocheting like gunshot through the cubicles. He told the manager to look over my contract and write in the margins as needed. He said it was just his luck his "new writer has an attorney for a husband" (ginormous red flag).

Week three, no contract. Richard unavailable. Manager said nothing (red flag, red flag, red flag). I presented accounting with my first invoice. I emailed Richard a copy.

Week four, I emailed Richard, asking if there was anything wrong with the final contract. No response (red flag). I showed up to work. Still no contract (red flag). Richard didn't make an appearance (red flag). Manager said nothing (red flag).

Week five, I sent my resignation letter, effective immediately. I included an invoice for my final hours. Richard immediately sent an apology email. Asked me to reconsider. What if he put the signed contract on my desk tomorrow?

Really?

I sure miss Georgia. She was a great boss. A kind boss. A true professional.

After (too many red flags to count).

Richard's office left a message. The check for my first invoice had been "returned to sender." I'd have to come pick it up. I called back. They had mailed it to a non-existent address ... not remotely close to my address clearly printed on the bottom of my invoice.

I was told they were waiting for my W-2 form. Interesting. More likely, they needed my W-9. No one had given me any form during my month of work. The form was supposed to have come from the manager. Perhaps he was still busy looking at my contract?

The woman had no record of the final invoice I sent to Richard with my resignation.

Really? REALLY?!? Get real.

I gave the woman the invoice specifics. I also told her she was welcome to send me any form she'd like via email as a PDF. I'd get back to her with a signed copy just as quickly as they got back to me with a signed contract.

Even sooner.

Possibly later.

Freelance writers, beware:

• Toxic clients are NOT worth the frustration.
• Don't allow someone to disrespect you as a professional.
• How a client treats his clients reflects how he will treat you.
• Your time and talents have a value. Know it. Stand firm.
• Be willing to lower your rate for a good client you know you'll enjoy working with. They will appreciate your flexibility and likely hire you again and again.
• Don't let a toxic client talk you into lowering your rate, just because you need the writing samples. They may ask you to work again ... or they may not. These bargain shoppers may not be as loyal to you as you are to them. If you allow them to treat you like the deal of the day, they will ... until they find a better deal.
• Protect yourself. Try to get it in writing.
• Know when to cut your losses and run.
• Trust your gut. Don't ignore the red flags.
• Go find a Georgia ... not a Dick.

REALLY!

#freelance #writing #WritingCommunity #WritingTip

I didn't realize the term procrastiwriter was a thing.

I thought myself very clever when the word popped into my head this morning, my first day back to work after a two-week beach vacation. My little bloggy light bulb, dim for many weeks now, burst into magnificent brilliance. Bam, I thought, I'll do a blog about writing procrastination ... something I struggle with every year, right about this time when I'm packing my bags for somewhere relaxing.

Alas, when I googled procrastiwriter (while putting off actually writing the blog post) it was already in the urban dictionary. I didn't come up with anything original. I guess there are plenty of us.


Anywhoooo ... back to my beach vacation. Summer is about sun and surf and swimming. During vaca season it can be harder than ever to commit to writing every day. The three weeks leading up to my beach trip were spent scrambling to complete several freelance projects, including a walking tour script for a new tourism business, Walk Erie Tours, in the Marblehead/Port Clinton, Ohio area of Lake Erie. My brain was filled with historical data and lighthouses and interesting characters from our past. Along with my sunglasses, I packed my final edits for the script, which I did turn in within a couple days of my beach arrival. Good for me! I'm proud to say I never procrastinate when my writing includes a paycheck.

On the other hand ...

In addition to an obscene number of swimsuits, I ALSO packed the second draft of my current women's fiction work-in-progress, "Charlotte's Choice." Ambitious, I know. I had the perfect excuse for putting off another edit. I was on vacation. There were sandcastles to sculpt. Tan lines to cultivate. Cocktails to drink. Sunsets to enjoy. My brain, I told myself, needed a break. A chance to re-charge.

I could have left the manuscript at home but didn't want my personal writing to come to a complete standstill. I was in the zone in May, you see, tweaking my plot and trying to get my most recent draft revised so my husband Mike, always my most loyal fiction beta reader, could experience "Charlotte's Choice" for the first time. I envisioned me completing an almost clean draft, printing it (yes, I packed my small inkjet printer and a ream of paper), and presenting it to my hubby in a 3-ring binder (yes, I packed that, too). I pictured him reading it by the pool, so engrossed by his first exposure to my twisty plot and quirky characters that the cool depths of watery goodness would go un-rippled.

Honestly? That would have taken a miracle.

Procrastiwriters, listen up ... this is what happened instead.

I didn't touch my manuscript for more than an hour or two in the first week.

BUT ...

- I read a women's fiction novel with a similar style to my own writing.

- I finally breezed through about half a dozen back issues of Writer's Digest and The Writer magazines I'd received in recent months. Granted, they got a little soggy. I did most of my reading in the hot tub.

- Enjoying some ocean breezes from a deck chair, I critiqued several fiction pieces for members of my monthly critique group. Reading their work always gives me ideas on how I can improve my own writing. Doing this on vacation allowed me to absorb their submissions more fully and provide them with a thoughtful critique. I had nothing else on my usually full calendar to take priority.

- I read back through comments I'd received from those same critique partners, over the course of several months. I'm usually so busy, I don't always grasp the little details or intent of what my partners say during our monthly sessions. SOMETIMES I don't even agree with them in that moment. By stepping away and coming back to those comments, weeks later, their valuable input is clearer to me. Doing this on vacation allowed me to absorb their comments, digest them, analyze them, and better decide what suggestions I wish to implement in my manuscript.

- I pulled out my story board, with a title and description of each chapter, and spent some quality time re-arranging the order of my chapters, so when I was ready to commit to another manuscript edit I'd be better prepared to tell the story in the best possible way.

- While digging my toes into the sand, I watched my "characters" pass by in the form of a tall, young woman looking for seashells, a sun-burned dad playing catch with his son, a young couple on the next towel over, clearly in the early stages of their relationship.

Week two of my beach vacation ...

I was so re-charged and ready to get back to work on my manuscript, I got up early one morning and dived right in. I spent an entire rainy day re-reading the first 100 pages of "Charlotte's Choice." I made changes as I went ... shuffling the order of my chapters, honing my characters' voices, implementing changes my critique partners had suggested (only the ones I truly agreed with, mind you).

I may be a procrastiwriter, but sometimes it's during the procrastination stage that I actually ... subconsciously ... get a heck of a lot done. As a result, my rainy day edits were some of the easiest, clearest edits I've ever done to a manuscript. My ideas had solidified during my brain break. Intentional or not, my summer vaca became my writing friend instead of stalling my writing progress.

I feel invigorated. Excited. Determined. I'm back in my little office, typing away at my bloggy blog about writing procrastination (perhaps avoiding editing the other 200 pages of "Charlotte's Choice" still remaining?)

This morning I also organized a kitchen drawer. I'm pretty sure one of my characters loves to cook.

This is research, my fellow procrastiwriters. Research. ;)

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I haven't been to a writing retreat for many years, but I highly recommend the experience. Typically held over a weekend and with a much smaller number of attendees than a writing conference, the retreat atmosphere lends itself very well to getting to know your fellow writers (and their writing) on a much more personal level. It can also provide a more intimate, focused critique opportunity, as most retreats provide critique sessions and/or "down time" to create your own sessions in a cozy corner with other writers.

Lakeside, OH—near and dear to my heart and the Lake Erie setting for my current work-in-progress NaNoWriMo 2019 project "Charlotte's Choice"—is just about the most beautiful location I can think of for a writing retreat. I have debated coordinating one of my own retreats in this quaint, step-back-in-time Chautauqua community, which sports cottages of climbing ivy, a sailing club, shuffleboard courts, and a stretch of waterfront dubbed the "most beautiful mile." Until I get my act together, I would be remiss to not blog about the upcoming Word Lovers Retreat, May 31 - June 2, to be held at the Idlewyld Bed and Breakfast.

WORD LOVERS RETREAT—LAKESIDE, OH

Claudia J. Taller, coordinator of Igniting Possibilities, stages the 23rd Word Lovers Retreat at Lakeside, OH. Held May 31 - June 2, at Idlewyld Bed and Breakfast, the event welcomes two Columbus writers, Trudy Brandenburg and Sandra Gurvis, as presenters. According to Taller, Trudy created the successful Emma Haines Kayak Mystery Series, teaches writing classes, and writes for magazines and newspapers. Sandra Gurvis is the author of sixteen commercially published books and hundreds of magazine articles. Her titles include Day Trips From Columbus, 3rd ed.; Ohio Curiosities, 2nd ed.; Careers For Nonconformists, which was a selection of the Quality Paperback Book Club; and America’s Strangest Museums.

Weekend Lineup

(per Taller's website)
Creating Fictional Characters: In this fun and interactive class led by Trudy, you’ll use a simple magazine picture to create your fictional character. This easy technique helps keep your characters true to themselves. You’ll craft a bio, complete with background, personality traits, and unique quirks that will bring your character to life. You’ll leave this class with a useful writing tool and the zeal to write! No writing experience necessary.

Bird Walk: From her kayak and on walks, Trudy’s an expert at hearing and seeing birds. Lakeside is on the Lake Erie migratory route, and attendees will take advantage of her expertise and love of birds on a walk around Lakeside.

Turning Personal Experiences into Viable Prose: “Everything is material,” or so the saying goes. But how can you turn life experiences into salable writing that readers can enjoy and relate to? This workshop with Sandra will focus on using anecdotes, memories, and observations to craft salable stories as well as how to distance yourself to avoid losing perspective and to protect yourself legally as well as the privacy of others.

Inventing (and Re-Inventing) Yourself as a Writer: No matter how many years you’ve been at it, writing is a continual process of discovery. Aimed at both novice and experienced writers, this workshop with Sandra helps explore the many ways you can use your skills and experiences to boost your career. Participants will get a chance to evaluate their present and future aspirations, along with finding new ways to earn income as a freelancer.

Critique Session: In small groups, participants will discuss what works and what doesn’t work in participant's work.

Open Microphone: With wine in hand, attendees will be entertained by fellow writers.

Registration

For cost and additional information, visit the Word Lovers page on Taller's website, www.claudiajtaller.com. To register, send an email to Claudia.taller@yahoo.com. 

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